Find what makes you happy and keep at it. Now let me explain, so no one gets confused. There is temporary happiness, and money brings that drugs can deliver it by making you numb to all the hidden emotions. Things of the world will deliver this to some extent. Some of us are damaged and can not tell the difference between the two.
I state it that way, for the fact that I was one who tried to put a lid on pandora’s box, keeping the lid on it, by drowning out all the negative emotions with drug abuse. In my own eyes, I was the worst of the worst. Living with a death wish. That’s for sure what I was living.
Blessed by God’s grace, I did not die in this time, nore get stuck with never coming back to reality. I speak of that as well. This is for the fact that I love some folks and also know a few who were running from the harsh reality of pain and lived an unhealthy lifestyle to boot.
Childhood trauma had happened to them at a young age. The great generational curse, the false teachings of parents dammaged along the way. In all my books, I promote happiness and hope, and the point there is really a better way of life out there for us all. If you were like me struggling to do life on life’s terms.
Let’s jump back to the happiness I tell you to find. Once you do, just keep at it. God’s got ya, even when you don’t think he cares. “He does help us who have been afflicted.” It’s not what happened, but how you react to those circumstances.
1st, you have got to forgive yourself for what part you played in becoming who you have been. God helps us with this. I was a great pile of poop at one time. “Not any more!” I made the concisous decision to change my view of the world I had created due to lifes struggles, the feelings of being kidnapped from my loving mother. Her death at my young age.
My point in all this is when you’re truly happy. The last thing you want to do is take a chance to destroy it. When you’re happy, you no longer want. self-destruction, or all the negative things that come with that lifestyle.
This requires change. Yes, it’s not for everyone. They become lifers. But if there is a chance that you’re tired of getting what you have always gotten. To the point that you want something different, then make the next best choice pertaining to what you do next to crawl out of that hole you have been in.
Make the amends. You need to apologize when necessary. Own the truth of whatever ever plagues you. Find what makes you happy and keep at it. So hold yourself to a higher standard than what you have.
I’m by no means perfect in all I do. Sure do though know the difference. Just because I’m happy now does by no means mean I don’t get angry. I still fight with myself at times. Don’t think drugs will save you, In the end, they only prolonged the misery.
Paul W. Kurko
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