When the time comes, be ready. There is truth in the fact that not everyone is your friend. As time passes, you find your strength to stay away from people places and things. Rest assured, there will come a day.
When that day comes, you will know it. There will be someone from your past who will surely without thinking, offer you some of whatever it was you left behind. That for many is where it all can fall apart.
There is a difference in staying out of that lifestyle and having it slap you in the face. Your old buddies still do what they have been doing, chances are they will not stop the life they have become accustomed to. Pray for them anyway.
In your homeboys defense, they knew a different person back then. They still see ya as that person. The time will come that you are offered to get high on whatever. If the two of you or the many had good times together. The choices become that much harder.
If you can pass up their offer, you will feel like you gained power over the addiction. This is as dangerous as looking down a barrel of a loaded gun. I’ve lost a lot of friends in my life to prisons and drugs. One drug or another, when they die its all the same.
So, back to what I was saying. ” When the day is over and all is well. You will remember the feeling that swept over you. When buddy drops the bag. Right! That feeling will keep you subconsciously thinking about the incident for weeks to come.
This is like a slippery slope. Many that have some time clean, struggle not to think about the offer to silently ruin their lives. One bad day can cause someone to revert back from where they came from.
When the time comes, be ready! After time, the choice becomes easier to make. On the cool, let’s say you and your Old Buddy just went a head and had a one nighter. There is a cloud of darkness that follows. Guilt and shame to be had.
I speak from experience 15 years. Still got my guard up. Really, I keep in thought how dumb I was to waste the time I did getting high. The hell it caused me is programmed to be thought of first. In the event I’m put on the spot.
Still happens in passing. People who once knew you. Most of the time, Old Pals don’t know what you’ve been up to. I know I’ve seen it over and over. People just throw it down and pick it up. I mean years clean.
Most of my friends are from that time in my life. They all quit to. Some had a harder bout with it than others. I had a fight of a lifetime when I quit in 2008.
My first kid came into the world unexpectedly. In a time when life was in the gutter. I had to land abruptly and become responsible overnight.
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